I wouldn’t say I had a very complicated pregnancy although there were some “complications”. I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and me being the sugary coffee drinker, non-breakfast eater that I am ( I knowww breakfast is the most important meal of the day…. I’m working on it)  had a hard time adjusting to the new diet. Besides that, I had a pretty smooth pregnancy. Due to insurance issues not medical issues, I was induced on Aug 29th, my water broke Aug 30th and she was born at 4:30pm. The moment she was put on my bare chest was and will forever be the most memorable moment of my life. No one, nothing can ever prepare you enough for that experience. Postpartum to me was very difficult, I will spare you the ugly details by just simply saying that the pain felt unbearable. I’m not breastfeeding, I did try, unfortunately, it wasn’t for us. After I came home from hospital I was really sore and just wanted to sit on the couch hold baby on my chest and nap. My mom called me 2 days postpartum to tell me she bought a plane ticket and was on her way the next day. Most would be thrilled but unfortunately my mother and I relationship is a work in progress. It was difficult having her here, both my husband and I know she meant well but her wanting to take control of everything was difficult. Every second I got to hold my daughter she would take. My advice to anyone who is going through something similar to that is to express your feelings. Some people don’t see it or know.  The only way they will, is by you telling them. If you want to lay on the couch and hold your baby you have every right to. Just express your feelings or thoughts and trust your gut.

Aug. 31,2015

day after delivery holding my little Gem.